Perlis Open Woman Tour

First stage result total of 80km

4th placing on first stage

After 3weeks of training and an intense week of work last week .Perlis Open race finally started for me and ended today. The first stage I admit wasnt easy due to lack of training. I was stuck in between the bunch and have to move around quite a bit before i reached the finish line. At about 50m to ending i realised I was most infront..I was so happy...but just before reaching...3people over took me..how sad..ended up third thought there isnt a prize for 4th but there is....so thank you. This pays off my bus ticket from Perlis to Kuala Lumpur.

Stage 2 of the race was a 74.9km with the average speed of 35kmph. There was quite a few breakaway attempts. One break which had a few of every strong riders in it. There was no Selangor but..the team i ride for. I realised that I have to start chasing....i worked with Kazakhstan and we started chasing...though they had 1 rider in the break they did work coz i think that was not their sprinter on the front!!!.....close to the front group everyone stopped working, i attacked and caught up with breakaway group continue riding with breakaway group for about...more than 5km...and finally slowed down all exausted and back to main group..

ending bunch sprint was up front about 500m to go no where to hide...i turned out..11@12...aint good that morning. This was the day we had to wear walkie talkies omg...couldnt stand it,...every small thing they would speak..i plugged it off after 10km...too noisy make me loose my concentration.

Had lunch then rode back and 1hour of nap before afternoons criterium...

3rd stage was the criterium with total of 49.5km and 3.3km per lap...with 1 neutral lap. I tried the first sprint didnt manage to gain any points.rigth after the first lap after the corner i broke off from the group solo....it wasnt easy at first as they were chasing....but after a while they stoped .However going into the 3rd lap ,sprint lap the group was about 100m behind me..I slowed down but they dont seem to catch up....i realised..that i broke away alone for 2 laps and going into te group means i get nothing at all!!! I got focused and continue riding as hard as i can...even after the sprint they werent around...so i just rode and rode....till reaching the next lap i turned back and saw 5riders chasing... I joined into that group. 2vietnames from a same team,1 another team,1 kazakhstan ,1kedai(Maziah) and me....we did speedwork to maintain the pace so the rest behind would not catch up...

2nd sprint i couldnt sprint anymore due to lack of training my quads were pulling....I had to stay on light gear....and take it easy...sit sprinting. 3rd sprint even worse got 3rd and last sprint got nothing..i was in the bunch except that i was not on the firs few...they counted me as 3seconds behind....weird....real weird msia commisaires...

I immediately took prize and rode back...showered and ready to board the bus...all for one reason. To go for Navy interview....I did the test of 2.4km which is 6laps of 400m with the time of 12mins and 35sec..isnt fast..but 3hours of sleep,after racing, under the noon sun....hmm

I think i passed all the test but this is fulltime navy with 10years contract...

omg thats long...i thought this was Kerahan or Simpanan which means..part-time....

no recruit needed..turned out..hmm...

Well i gave my best shot...its time to decide next~!....

Now m going to bed to cont and add in my 3hours of sleep last night....

was a really long day for me...all the way from Perlis to Kuala Lumpur...about 500-600km..

i want to sleep and sleep..

Perlis again

This time around its Perlis Open?...or m not sure what is it really called
It will be starting at 3pm ..road race...80-90km plus not sure of the exact distance.
There are riders from Vietnam,Kazakhstan,Laos and maybe Uzbekistan....

This time it will be under23 and only women as well...surprisingly first time a race is made just for woman...I think the sport will be improving by the way its going... I mean finally looking into some races for woman...
but then again whynot just open...we have only a few above 23...its my final year of 23 anywayz..
Will try to get some pictures and upload it ..
and the best part is...internship is finally over...
i see a thread of good things coming in my way...studying part time at lim kok wing under sports, navy selection which allows me to get more money monthly....
okay2..stay focus for the race now...

Long week finally over

The slipper I purchased, feel my taste is becoming aunty.

Massive setup and hectic.

The China clients photography session.

Our Malaysian dancers from Istana Budaya and freelancers.

It's been a really hectic week for me.

Internship i was doing...is an event company

There were clients from China and it was a food business chain that had their conference in Malaysia.surprisingly the owner is a Phipino CHinese...
Looking at the chain business spread is on the east of China. It's not as wide as McDonalds@KFC

but for sure their business is growing preety well.

They serve Chinese noodles in soup, dry and these sort of chinese meals where you can actually purchase most places in China by even the roadsides. However this is made into an airconditioned place which makes it look more classy of a meal someone could have.

The first day there were dancers which were arranged to recieve these clients from china .

next day the conference starts, followed by day after another conference and that night was the dinner.

Onthe same day which was a Thursday, Clarks Warehouse sales took place at Corus hotel, Ampang. Actually situated roughly opposite KLCC, Nasi Kandar Pelita as well...

Thursday was the setup day for this sales. the were 2lorries and 1 big container they call it....

that were full of boxes and we had to trolley them

from the lorry to the lif,

lif to the main ballroom.

Then arrange them according to type,colour and sizes. These boxes comes from Thailand,Indonesia,most other countries of south east asia that are unsold. So massive arrangement have to be done!

Friday and Saturday was when the madness started....push and push omg...everyone seemed so barbaric at that moment....

standing was defenetly tiring, it felt like i did deadlift nonstop....crazy.....

I was so busy trying to remember what shoes to take,size.Loose my appetite and defenetly I would say that it was stress free.....

but Tired was the word......

Last day..about 3pm..went to the Woman's and figured...

time of the month no wonder have been so moody last week...

Slacked so much this week...but have to get back into normal routine all over again...

no time to waste....

Vril's back

yesterday night it was drizzling and I got a lil of rain..made me feel sick today...
i feel dizzy...woke up at 5plus to go to the airport..
avril's flight delay..she said its coz of...
engine couldnt start..thankfully my sister is safe!
I had my head spinning had...kueyteow+mee soup for brekky..
chee cheong fun for lunch then..
vadai for teatime...
and soon going to some treatment to loose weight..:P
I'm too full btw..was starving..
crazy starving too much sucks
tend to eat too much,
need to sleep early tonite.
by 8.30pm or I wil suffer again tomorrow

full week training

Yesterday we had a 100km ride ..8woman riders in total
the amount of woman riders certainly increased.
We did few intervals required.
In the afternoon I had another session of training then...had dinner with a friend.
today=sunday..planned to go to KLCC's convention centre where there's beauty fair...
I m just so doomed my legs are screaming...just wouldnt want to wake up and go.....figured should sleep........so I did after todays ride...
and woke up about 2pm...
reached home area about...3pm..
dead...hungry...all chinese stalls are close...
boring.
end up eating AYAMAS...chicken rice...honey roast chicken rice...
was okayla.....
as i reached home with my grandfathers rojak...
and went to say hi...he ask how much la...
I came out saying so sien to my father..and he said u seldom live at home...
shouldnt be complaining..n on n on...I said enough...
i understand,m hungry.let me eat then u can say more.....
it's just this feeling....when you're hungry you just wanna eat in peace..
no disturbance...
and questions.....
just to fill that hungry tummy...
arrrgghh........and i think he's pissed now.
should just shut up next time..or never go home when i'm hungry

FInally getting my step back

Been a while had a too long lay off
I realise that everyone has problems and how u look at things
u just have to know what u want
and work towards it and everything is going to be alright..
did road this morning.aint that far....but defenetly hurts on the hills...
m so sleepy..at work..
tommorow's another big day tocome...
i will try my best..its this august
in the teen dates
go fight go
and get what u want
:)

Who said I'm pregnant?

I was in the car otw back to the office with my colleague..
at the passanger seat from ikano after buying files and collecting the vacumn cleaner
my phone was ringing..who could it be...KATE?
hmm...regarding what this time?
my program is settled?
actually not..she asked where am I and..
i heard rumours going around,
is it true that you are pregnant and getting married?...
I got a shock of my life ....who would dare say such things?
I was never once in my life pregnant or even at the registration office to get married or
even told my mum that i m going to get married.
I would if i do so...
I wonder which kind soul did such....
My life has nothing to do with them...busybodies...
and worse is spreading rumours that are not true.
This is insane@crazy.
maybe because of this john jas been hesitating on whether i want to continue riding or not?...
I wouldnt blame him for this..
but I am so surprise.
I am 23, still studying....pregnant?NO..
I dont even have a job...
If i would to be a parent I would be a responsible one..
not this way....
WHY?all this rubbish?why?

If only

if only I was still little ,
when i make a mistake,
I can just cry and everything will be okay.
If only i can reverse time,
to patch everything back.
If only I am more patient
when I make a move.
If there's a way to make you happy,
I would.
If there's a way to be happy,
I would try.
but right now i cant think of one.
If I am free ,with loads of money.
I would go somewhere,
far far away where no one can find me.
I need to really think.
To think of what i really want.
I know i want to ride my bike,
but how am I will all this stress.
If only I feel happy.
I am lonely and sad.
I want to be alive like usual...
Right now....it has been 1month
since I have been crying.
I am so tired,
god please let me feel free and happy.
let all the evil go.
If only I can be satisfied with everything
i would be the happiest person on this planet.

I need to focus...

but we're argueing all the time.
before i could finish each sentence you always bud in...
and you say its not important so doesnt matter...
so everything i say is not important to you,
you dont have to listen?
selfish...
There have been many times that I have been patient,
more patient than the person I really am...
Who do u really love deep down inside?
Everything that hurts me has to do with a her...
and you let her...come in the way when u say its over?....
You know the truth that when she was with you, she was unsincered....
and you feel pissed...well face the fact!
She never really loved you or she'll not even do such.
She's an actress but do u want to be an actor to be comparable with her?
you can as long as you want....
I have goals in my life,
I hope that you will just stop argueing with me...
if u think that this relationship is important...
try to listen once is a while....
listening does not mean agreeing....
m just tired and drained out from all this...............
m going to be selfish too from now on....
and if there's something you need you can still tell me.
I'll try my best to help.

New Coach appointed

Now after all I've been through after many times of coach switching...
I believe its again time to change to another coach!
However ofcourse it will be good for a lot of reasons...
Fairoz Izni...developments sprinters coach is now appointed as National squad elite coach..
as an assistant for John Beasley.
The coach I had trained under to set a Malaysian record since 2006 until today.
With the help of both John and Fairoz I think I am more focused and happy.
That most things are falling into place...
Finally god answered my prayers.
I will give my full comitment to prove that I am going to make a strong comeback.
It's to determind on how I feel,
how much I still want it inside myself.
I hope this feelings stay strong within myself to achieve what I really want for this year.
I have been aiming this as because there weren't any other major races available.

Insulted

It's true that I've slacked from training...
I havent lost my appetite...
been putting on weight...
but also lost some back...
went into the dining hall this morning...
this bitch came up to me saying...
GEMUK la ko...and when u remain queit she repeated...
I answered SO?
she said GEMUK diet la...
I said to be like u ? a STICK?..
she answered kurang ajar...means I am being rude....
In the first place who started stupid thing?
I dont even know her name...
and even if I'm fat did i obstruck her life?
Why do Malaysians have such thinking?
why cant they say positive things when seeing each other...
heard your business is good or something....
instead....hey u put on weight ahh....
after years of not meeting up is that what u tell your friend?
It's crazy...and honestly insulting...
If it's a close friend I really think I would feel different over it.

someday

someday,
when i think of you,just thinking of you...
I feel a glow...in every part of you.
sometime,
when the time is slow,
fluttering around the clock so slow....
I have to make my decision soon.
seldom,
memories go apart,
life falls into place...
but we still survive the way we want it to.
because of this everything survives.
patience around the air
being small and low...
having nothing to say...
just have faith in yourself...
love yourself and fullfill your needs

life's complicated

I've been through several interview and realise it's not an easy world out there...
Life's preety challenging and we can only succeed with hardwork.
nothing comes easy.
I think god wants me to continue with my cycling career because I show good potential in it...
even though i havent been training much and everytime I think its time to let go,
there will be something that holds mc back..something that tells me be patient...
and follow your passion.
There's a time for everything .
Nothing is impossible when there's a desire...
but obviously being a model you have to be tall..
that not only comes with desire but also come with genes,natural given by god...