friends do turn around

I use to think that people say watch out your friend might eat you.
I realise as I get older day by day,
everything seems to make more sense when I age.
I use to not understand or see the importance of why should i train so hard.
but now i do,
time is running up,
I finally have to train hard to be the best or just forget about it for real.
i also realise that nothing else can make me happy,
it's myself..
my achievement is not comparable with any other things in this world.
Every hardwork i put into my daily program, will be worth it.
I think this whole year,
this month is my most enjoyable month so far.
I have no internship, no college just training.
I kind of like this life,
it's only a few hours of toughness and then you get to relax.
working is the wholeday!
college the same,thinking of break in between classes is even worse....
and never trust anyone

seriously shit weekend

iissshh what a day..woke up this morning body aches...
tired frm racing...
feel so lazy,....dont want or just go trng
??
then MALAS tangga kegagalan...remember what Azizul told Tya...lol
and merajinkan diri la...
g trng...budget 100-120km naik van so....bawa baju sluar...
after 40km plus hills kena tinggal here and there hold the van then okay la juga...
at 68km on Azian's meter and 73km on Mariana the hill again
i stood up chain fling...drop one gear was okay..
ride 4strokes the chain fling off sat on the toptube.....
legs hit the handlebars lost control, went left into Ahmar's rim.....and bye2.........
down hindustan film started rolling...
Azian from the back i think hit me as well...
ohh god....I have no idea...how it happen so fast..
now m bruised on the left shoulder....on my precious buttocks...
hurts like hell cant sit...and feels like its going to cramp...yer...
hope it gets good quick...
have gym in the morning...better not be sore

disaster weekend

At this moment i feel like shit..
i lose time trial 4seconds to a junior..
and for the first time loosing time trial..
this is shit..
I didnt have enough time for warmup..and also lack of training...
Todays road race.10km lap x5 of putrajaya..
many attempts of breakway i tried and those that did i chased..
in the end...I got 4@5...
sad...but true...
before the race...saw 'his' pathetic gf...wide ugly eyebrows...
sitting beside each other...like a picnic....
its suppose to be a race tho...
whatever...passed...
I just want to train really hard and so hard...
I just need to win now..
makes me angry and I want more..
more....winning..
i want to win and be only the best

medicine or what?

today's another day...
I overslept....
I wonder is it the medication I had or what?
hmmpphh...
I ended up on ergo again....
then had gym in the afternoon..
Psycologist...Hasmah Yusoff is quiting...her career with Isn....
she's been 12years with national sports council...
i always find it easy talking to her...
somehow...
This weekend there will be racing at putrajaya...
under 23 again..
whats with this races I wonder whos the organizer....
i am just under age for it.how lucky....
hmm....tomorrow how far should i ride?
since friday evening theres racing..said to have a timetrial....but what i heard was criterium as well....confused~!!!

What a Day~!!!!

Of all days today...
hmm this morning work up as usual at 6plus thought that there would be training...
instead had to do testing....went back to bed..
then did testing at 11.45am...finished closed to 1pm...
This years best result of my 5 mins and 20mins timetrial..
mentally stronger or....training more effective?
I reckon some of both!
This afternoon had another training session was hard but satisfying....love the torture...
feels so good.....I decided have a quick shower go to daddy's place earlier...makan maggi...
but hurrrmmmpphhh....
at the lights after TTDI market...my clutch broke....
the thing..would not come up again....damn sad....at the lights i drove at gear one....realised can changed into heavier gear which I did..to move alil faster...then...after 2 long long stretches....my car died!
I couldnt changed the gear into 1 in time..dammit....
I had to push the car in the traffic...was embarassing...and I realised....
Glenn was behind me...I rememberd he said about coming to my rescue on facebook and I said dont want..and now..hahahah...he even bought me teh o ais limau...kekeke...
thank you uncle glenn....
Am at TTDI....at dad's place...waiting for ex-colleague for dinner.....
apparently they just finished some stuff and will b late...lol....
Thankfully am already here....
starving....lol....

another weeks over

This week has been easy training however doesnt feel easy!
after Perlis due to lack of sleep this week feels extremely tiring..omg..
have been coughing nonstop...
I feel happy that its over...
next week will feel harder..
there's a test on Tuesday aftn..i have no idea why..
I thought that I am under Fairoz and I should follow john's program?
this means i cant train morning and aftn...
m still coughing...
tomorrow will b a long day again!!!
:)

Perlis Open Woman Tour

First stage result total of 80km

4th placing on first stage

After 3weeks of training and an intense week of work last week .Perlis Open race finally started for me and ended today. The first stage I admit wasnt easy due to lack of training. I was stuck in between the bunch and have to move around quite a bit before i reached the finish line. At about 50m to ending i realised I was most infront..I was so happy...but just before reaching...3people over took me..how sad..ended up third thought there isnt a prize for 4th but there is....so thank you. This pays off my bus ticket from Perlis to Kuala Lumpur.

Stage 2 of the race was a 74.9km with the average speed of 35kmph. There was quite a few breakaway attempts. One break which had a few of every strong riders in it. There was no Selangor but..the team i ride for. I realised that I have to start chasing....i worked with Kazakhstan and we started chasing...though they had 1 rider in the break they did work coz i think that was not their sprinter on the front!!!.....close to the front group everyone stopped working, i attacked and caught up with breakaway group continue riding with breakaway group for about...more than 5km...and finally slowed down all exausted and back to main group..

ending bunch sprint was up front about 500m to go no where to hide...i turned out..11@12...aint good that morning. This was the day we had to wear walkie talkies omg...couldnt stand it,...every small thing they would speak..i plugged it off after 10km...too noisy make me loose my concentration.

Had lunch then rode back and 1hour of nap before afternoons criterium...

3rd stage was the criterium with total of 49.5km and 3.3km per lap...with 1 neutral lap. I tried the first sprint didnt manage to gain any points.rigth after the first lap after the corner i broke off from the group solo....it wasnt easy at first as they were chasing....but after a while they stoped .However going into the 3rd lap ,sprint lap the group was about 100m behind me..I slowed down but they dont seem to catch up....i realised..that i broke away alone for 2 laps and going into te group means i get nothing at all!!! I got focused and continue riding as hard as i can...even after the sprint they werent around...so i just rode and rode....till reaching the next lap i turned back and saw 5riders chasing... I joined into that group. 2vietnames from a same team,1 another team,1 kazakhstan ,1kedai(Maziah) and me....we did speedwork to maintain the pace so the rest behind would not catch up...

2nd sprint i couldnt sprint anymore due to lack of training my quads were pulling....I had to stay on light gear....and take it easy...sit sprinting. 3rd sprint even worse got 3rd and last sprint got nothing..i was in the bunch except that i was not on the firs few...they counted me as 3seconds behind....weird....real weird msia commisaires...

I immediately took prize and rode back...showered and ready to board the bus...all for one reason. To go for Navy interview....I did the test of 2.4km which is 6laps of 400m with the time of 12mins and 35sec..isnt fast..but 3hours of sleep,after racing, under the noon sun....hmm

I think i passed all the test but this is fulltime navy with 10years contract...

omg thats long...i thought this was Kerahan or Simpanan which means..part-time....

no recruit needed..turned out..hmm...

Well i gave my best shot...its time to decide next~!....

Now m going to bed to cont and add in my 3hours of sleep last night....

was a really long day for me...all the way from Perlis to Kuala Lumpur...about 500-600km..

i want to sleep and sleep..