friends do turn around

I use to think that people say watch out your friend might eat you.
I realise as I get older day by day,
everything seems to make more sense when I age.
I use to not understand or see the importance of why should i train so hard.
but now i do,
time is running up,
I finally have to train hard to be the best or just forget about it for real.
i also realise that nothing else can make me happy,
it's myself..
my achievement is not comparable with any other things in this world.
Every hardwork i put into my daily program, will be worth it.
I think this whole year,
this month is my most enjoyable month so far.
I have no internship, no college just training.
I kind of like this life,
it's only a few hours of toughness and then you get to relax.
working is the wholeday!
college the same,thinking of break in between classes is even worse....
and never trust anyone

seriously shit weekend

iissshh what a day..woke up this morning body aches...
tired frm racing...
feel so lazy,....dont want or just go trng
??
then MALAS tangga kegagalan...remember what Azizul told Tya...lol
and merajinkan diri la...
g trng...budget 100-120km naik van so....bawa baju sluar...
after 40km plus hills kena tinggal here and there hold the van then okay la juga...
at 68km on Azian's meter and 73km on Mariana the hill again
i stood up chain fling...drop one gear was okay..
ride 4strokes the chain fling off sat on the toptube.....
legs hit the handlebars lost control, went left into Ahmar's rim.....and bye2.........
down hindustan film started rolling...
Azian from the back i think hit me as well...
ohh god....I have no idea...how it happen so fast..
now m bruised on the left shoulder....on my precious buttocks...
hurts like hell cant sit...and feels like its going to cramp...yer...
hope it gets good quick...
have gym in the morning...better not be sore

disaster weekend

At this moment i feel like shit..
i lose time trial 4seconds to a junior..
and for the first time loosing time trial..
this is shit..
I didnt have enough time for warmup..and also lack of training...
Todays road race.10km lap x5 of putrajaya..
many attempts of breakway i tried and those that did i chased..
in the end...I got 4@5...
sad...but true...
before the race...saw 'his' pathetic gf...wide ugly eyebrows...
sitting beside each other...like a picnic....
its suppose to be a race tho...
whatever...passed...
I just want to train really hard and so hard...
I just need to win now..
makes me angry and I want more..
more....winning..
i want to win and be only the best

medicine or what?

today's another day...
I overslept....
I wonder is it the medication I had or what?
hmmpphh...
I ended up on ergo again....
then had gym in the afternoon..
Psycologist...Hasmah Yusoff is quiting...her career with Isn....
she's been 12years with national sports council...
i always find it easy talking to her...
somehow...
This weekend there will be racing at putrajaya...
under 23 again..
whats with this races I wonder whos the organizer....
i am just under age for it.how lucky....
hmm....tomorrow how far should i ride?
since friday evening theres racing..said to have a timetrial....but what i heard was criterium as well....confused~!!!

What a Day~!!!!

Of all days today...
hmm this morning work up as usual at 6plus thought that there would be training...
instead had to do testing....went back to bed..
then did testing at 11.45am...finished closed to 1pm...
This years best result of my 5 mins and 20mins timetrial..
mentally stronger or....training more effective?
I reckon some of both!
This afternoon had another training session was hard but satisfying....love the torture...
feels so good.....I decided have a quick shower go to daddy's place earlier...makan maggi...
but hurrrmmmpphhh....
at the lights after TTDI market...my clutch broke....
the thing..would not come up again....damn sad....at the lights i drove at gear one....realised can changed into heavier gear which I did..to move alil faster...then...after 2 long long stretches....my car died!
I couldnt changed the gear into 1 in time..dammit....
I had to push the car in the traffic...was embarassing...and I realised....
Glenn was behind me...I rememberd he said about coming to my rescue on facebook and I said dont want..and now..hahahah...he even bought me teh o ais limau...kekeke...
thank you uncle glenn....
Am at TTDI....at dad's place...waiting for ex-colleague for dinner.....
apparently they just finished some stuff and will b late...lol....
Thankfully am already here....
starving....lol....

another weeks over

This week has been easy training however doesnt feel easy!
after Perlis due to lack of sleep this week feels extremely tiring..omg..
have been coughing nonstop...
I feel happy that its over...
next week will feel harder..
there's a test on Tuesday aftn..i have no idea why..
I thought that I am under Fairoz and I should follow john's program?
this means i cant train morning and aftn...
m still coughing...
tomorrow will b a long day again!!!
:)