NEVER trust people online

Facebook/Friendster/Myspace/twitter/high5.....
whatever...never trust strangers from this...never
Someone ask for a friend request and even if its a friends friend...
and you do not know them NOT to add them.
Coz at the end of the day you never know what are they up to?
In my case.....never expect such a sneaky approach...
i thought cyclist so okay la know alot of my friends...
asked for friend request...so i added and started talking over msn..
quite often as well....so i thought okay la maybe interested in the sport wants to know more...
So i would tell roughly about my trng...what I do...
just because he ask....
I felt quite pushy at times....
ask me to go trng la...blah3.....
Also I was quite curious how he knows about our training program...
what uncle does...like so frequent....and i thought goes to joo ngans shop everyday....
I realise...it was just a blardy act...
just wants to findout about me...so that he can reveal to his gf...
I mean I dont care about his dirty tactic but if he was a genuine friend....
we have been chatting for a while online and he came to watch the track nationals,
why cant he even say HELLO/ Hi???
is it that difficult?
That shows...its pure acting....
actor to be??????????
ya.....maybe but low quality...makes me so pissed....
such a DICKhead

After Meeting with John & Kate

It was actually quite a relieve speaking to the both of them.
That there were still people that cared about me, Woman's cycling at least.
I was told to rethink to what I want because
I am at the border of to getting fitter to win or it will be over and too late forever.
At 23 its an age where you have to decide because cycling is a sport where you start fairly late childhood and early teens and excel in your twenties however doesnt even for some.
I'm giving a week to think and really think and decide.
At this moment, I just want to get out there and start riding my bike.
I feel that faster finish studying laah!!!!
but its just a matter of being patient and have the inner self motivation to motivate you.
Tell myself what I want anf go for it...
Many at times I tell my family,I am sick of cycling.so sick so fed up....but its just words from my mouth...inside my heart I love cycling. I started riding my bike with the love for it. I enjoy it...
Everytime I dont ride my bike I feel guilty inside,something is missing.
It's just the situation that makes me feel upset, down feeling, people trying to get rid of me.
I am a successful person in every area that I have involved myself in, in this life of mine.
I would never consider being unsuccessful because I am studying and training.
Are there any other cyclist studying fulltime and riding their bike?
NONE....even if they are, It's in the sports school and mostly when they get into UPM they stop, they quit because of having less time and being threatened to get thrown...or just an immediate action.
What Fairoz said in my earlier comment is so true. Life isnt easy,its tough.
But imagine if I can passover a tough situation,who gets stronger?
It's me...I will be able to face even bigger situation in life.

Is studying wrong?But why?

I thought that studying was the best thing that could have happen to me.
However it doesnt seem to be at the moment.
I havent had much time to train compared to last year.
frm 5subjects moving on to 8subjects is tough..
and having tour guiding defenetly didnt make it any easier.
If i could speak I would, somehow things doesnt work this way in Malaysia. If u speak you are wrong.
Just remain silent whatever you think.
It's sad that we cannot express our feelings as a rider.
It's sad that because of politics msian sports hasnt gone far to where it should have been right now without politics.
You have to be able to suck up to get something,
skin colour?maybe.....
It's a fact that we have to admit. I feel it..
I have been patient...
All I get is I dont have results, I dont think its true
in year 2008 I won sukma it's nothing big but still the best in the country apart from Azian who is over age for this,
3km persuit bronze in Asian cycling, Vietnam tour.........it wasnt easy but with teamates i turnedout overall 3rd n 1stage wins with 2nds..
I really dont know what to do when I realise that since last years World cup series that Woman will not be going, It was sad.
Woman's endurancewill go no where if they keep discarding old people.
Malaysia needs people with experience to the sport, with the guts.
We had a very strong team in the vietnam tour in Ho Chi Minh last year...no one sees that. Although it was just vietnam but anyone who watched the teamwork of the Malaysians would be so touched how hard we fought in the race againts the 44vietnamese.
I know that god is fair...when the time comes I will earn what I have sacrificed all this while.
I remember what Puan Zaiton told me..it made a really big impact in my decision and on how I think. I feel really motivated to fight.
Someone that succeeds the hardway will succeed truely. Fairly.
God please stay with me and motivate me, please make me a tougher person from what has and is going to happen.
Thankfully however I still have my beloved family and Mr Ribena...

My friend diagnosed kidney problem

My old time friend since I was 16years old remember the first time i spoke to him it was in the Ramadhan month. Have been my friend for 7years now. He's a very lively person and would be so anti social when I first known him. We hardly speak under the same team. However the year of his SPM his parents decided for him to concentrate more on his studies and we seldom meetup during races.
I use to call his skinny@kurus....
akibat the...kutukan..i think he goes to gym so much that he became muscular+FAT lol....ya thats what he calls me currently.
During his polytechnique days..he would complain about his friends this la that la...
How much fun they have under one roof...farting around cutting peoples underpants...etc..
this is how crazy students get living outside of their parents...
Until today we are still friends which I really appreciate.There are many times when I have no one to turn to I will ring up and start crying....through my breakups hard times with coaches or friends. Obviouslyu we do argue....and tak bercakap for long time...but after a while cakap juga...
I am quite sad to know that he went for a medical checkup which he asked me to replace him and thankfully I didnt or else he would never findout and change his lifestyle..
He has kidney problem....and might need a transplant but the doctor says to give it 3months of time to see how things workout....
hopefully a miracle would happen and it will be okay...
24years of age isnt old....so if u're young always take care of yourselves....
dont overdo something...
enjoy life with a limit....
and till then exercise to continue staying fit.:)

COngrats to Anuar Manan

TAniah Anuar....krn menang stage harini...menurut anda...
I read the past news yesterdays result of stage3 in jelajah Malaysia.
Sampai di kampung sendiri terus menang?!....
COngrats again and hope you do great in the upcoming stages

What a relieve

I finally got to speak to Mr Ribena who has been busy with his Suunto sponsor...
happy for him that he will be the ambassador for Suunto~!...
he worked so hard and earns it...
I feel so happy right now that I met him and being able to speak to him...
and tell him how i feel at work and how it affects me...
Sayang....thank you for listening to me....
I'll wait for you...
so do whatever u think is best for yourself...
You know that you are a very successful person
just like myself..*wink*

Test, Late for work

After track National's its 1week and 2days now.
Isn had testing which consist of a 5min timetrial and a 20min timetrial.
It was straineous...After a week off as suggested which i didnt...
and still i felt tired.
I am glad I did train and not just lay off.
Started at 8.05...to be exact..after here there..it finished 9.15am..
I was rushing all the doors to msn were locked no idea why.
Made me even more in a hurry...
I took a 3min bath no idea what kinda bathe was that...
i smelled good though..lol...with the amount of shampoo on my hair
n soap spread all over my body.
I just dont know to push on a cadence kinda test...for 20mins...
I love the road long distance or timetrial...
even if it's short..but long dist on the SRM machine just feels so weird..always does.
I am at work now thankfully..
Got to start that freaking diet..
i weigh KILoGRAMS of fat...
Work is stress somehow..want to finish it quick and I will have 5weeks left after this one
While I was doing my test...Azman came...n talk n talk to John...found it annoying...
After a while...Mariana and Ribena came..gave me...semangat..
but without sufficient trng m still suffering...
just officially started my training this week.

Weekend....

Ride from SUbang-PD..suyie had a puncture..good for rest

da cute lil oliver...my nephew

ika n mum@ayan's family member no ayan here tho :S

Mr Ribena & me

In the event company had my first..event at the gardens hotel...
it was a small annual company dinner by Azbil..
Japanese company that's run in Malaysia..

No pictures frm the events were taken
Saturday went to watch Ayan's sports day at MPSJ....
wow..turned black....
then...went home met uncle nam seng, chui lin cheh,...n the cute oliver..
Sunday is the nightmare...rode...200km plus even blacker but love it

wanna die now...
i havent been trng feels like shit..
n the unconstant speed makes it even more tiring......
Luckily Mr Ribena was waiting at Dengkil thought he turned of elsewhere...:(
now's time for early dinner n snooze

National Track Championships/ Concern over Woman's endurance

ALARM bells rang at the opening round of the National Track Championships at Kuala Lumpur Velodrome yesterday, but it wasn't due to the heavy rain which forced the postponement of the evening events.
Uracca Leow, who stopped training full-time since the beginning of the year to focus on studies, still proved she was the best in the country over the 3km individual pursuit, but her winning time of four minutes 20.700 seconds, which was way off her national record of 3:50.891s set at the 2006 Doha Asian Games, must have raised some concern.The 23-year-old won the gold medal with ease, way ahead of Selangor's national back-up trainee Nurul Ahmar Badeuzzaman, who clocked 4:32.615s in the final, raising more questions over where the women's endurance squad was heading.Malaysian National Cycling Federation (MNCF) competitions committee chairman Maniam Manikkam called for calm, stating that this was the very reason why such measures as the organising of the inaugural national series was done."There is no use complaining or making an issue out of this. We realised the problem and one of our main objectives of not just this series, but the increased number of track competitions for the age groups as well as the elite riders this year is to address these problems," said Maniam.
"We are struggling to maintain a solid women's squad and we admit that. But it isn't like we're not taking measures to improve the situation."The under-18 girls' 200m sprint final brought no surprises with both national back-up squad trainees under coach Fairoz Izni Abdul Ghani making the final.But Zahraa Anuwar this time had an edge over the usually powerful Jupha Somnet, with the final ending in a straight match sprint to the former.In the much awaited boys' under-18 200m sprint, Kedah's regional centre trainee Mohd Hazmir Azeman gained a huge psychological advantage when he turned in an 11.468 seconds flying lap to emerge as the surprise fastest qualifier ahead of a string of favourites led by Mohd Arfy Qhairant Amran of Malacca, the dominant force in the SportExcel National Junior Circuit this year. The other favourite, Kedah's Farhan Amri Zaid, was only the third fastest qualifier with a time of 11.946s. But the knockout stages, scheduled to be held last night, were postponed to today due to heavy rain.

RESULTS (all finals): Boys' Under-15 -- 200m sprint: Mohd Farhanis Ishak (Sel) bt Muhd Sayuti Ramli (Ter) 2-0; Bronze: Azri Ahmad (Ter) bt Amirul Fahmi Azman (Sel) 2-0; Girls' Under-18 -- 200m sprint: Zahraa Anuwar (NSC-Pah) bt Jupha Somnet (NSC-Per) 2-0; Bronze: Nurain Mahmood (BPSS) bt Siti Nursyahirah Zainol (ASZU-Pen) walkover;Open --

3km individual pursuit: 1 Uracca Leow (Sel) 4:20.700s, 2 Nurul Ahmar Badeuzzaman (NSC-Sel) 4:32.615s, 3 Masziyaton Mohd Radzi (Ked) 4:38.673s

qualifying over

hmm....the qualifying round is over...
target time set for me was 3.55min...
i did 4.20min...
crazy....SLOW...i never did such a slow time in the past 3years...
fastest outdoor time was in bangkok which is a 3.57min
fastest in msia track is a 4.05 during asian cup
personal and malaysia's record is a 3.50min at asian games
next closest time to it was during sydney worldcup just before seagames and it was 3.53min
Final was suppose to be whey over yesterday....it rained...scratch was posponed to today...and final in a while but rained again! aiyoyo...
later today will be the final of 3km individual persuit i guess...if it doesnt rain again...
on the other hand my ribena boy's team....
he got 1st yesterday leading the 2nd team 8mins behind and 3rd team 12mins behind...
it was very cute speaking to me and not moving or he will loose signal...
hope to hear from him again tonight and hopefully leading...
apparently still leading but...2nd team for today...
hopefully today will be better and tomorrow...
they'll win the overall...
sorry cant be there with you...we both just have to fight

was thinking

Last night was somehow different....

You were meeting up with your old friends etc....

I was thinking so much....

What am I going to work as..

How much longer do i want to ride my bike....

Will we get enough revenues to live moderate-rich....

I really want to ride my bike....only and not study cant wait to finish this year...

I set a target that by next year Asian Games is to win a medal...

this year however is to balance up both...isnt easy to be at Asian level...

but nothing stops me from my dreams...

If I do not succeed in Asian Games i believe its time for me to go...

That I will leave it to god....to decide...

I am sure that there will be something set up for me.......

just for me...

I just want to get married quick as well......

Coz...everything seems so good and going so smooth...

About my family....think they will accept it somehow....